starting from scratch

"Being like a boat that keeps on sailing against the stormy winds.."

A month ago, my laptop was stolen...2 weeks ago, i lost my job....a day ago, my atm card was almost captured (a significant amount was lost-technical error- pero kahit na malaking abala un!).. minutes ago, i almost fell from my chair when i've felt our ministry in guinobatan was "shaking".... Why are all these things happening?

They need to happen... God is up to something so He allows them to happen.. Everything has a purpose.. God is still in control..

Though sometimes i feel like i have done something wrong and all these are just the consequences of my errors, i feel tired.. i feel numb and confused of figuring out what did i do. I just realize that these are tests, not consequences.

Because of what are happening, i realize that there are 3 types of problems: consequence, test, temptation.

Consequence- we suffer from our own disobedience and irresponsibilities.

Test- we are taught to endure and after that, we grow and take higher steps for God's glory.

Temptation- coming from satan, from which our faith is tested.

Now, i am having the 2nd one. Test.

I have noted a lot of "assignments". I've prepared. Yet i need to re-do them. Got to repeat the process and finally get a perfect score.


I had my laptop 10 months ago. It was an investment from my separation payment from my previous company. I've got successful freelance jobs with that laptop. yet after 10 months, it's gone. And now i am starting from scratch.

I had a good freelance job for a while. I just work 2 hours a day. I thought my career in that company is getting better until last april 5, the door closed. I lost it. now i am starting from scratch.

I had a clear-cut goal for our ministry in Guinobatan. I was so inspired that i had designed a leadership training for the youth. At first we had a confirmation from 20 attendees. 1 week before the event, they're down to 10. Now, 2 days before the training, there are just 3. They are incoming freshmen and the day of the training was just perfectly the time for their cards, scholarship applications, and all that. Now, i need to start from scratch.



HIS THOUGHTS ARE HIGHER THAN MINE..AND DEFINITELY, HIS WAYS ARE BETTER THAN MINE.

I surrender them all to God. God knows the best things. I just need to listen to His instructions.



"Lord, whatever you want from my life, I am ready for you. You deserve it all. You own it all. Even the hands that keep me on working and playing music.. they all come from you. Praise you God. If you want me to start from scratch, so be it. I will still praise Your Name. I am ready for that thing that you want me to understand and learn...

Honestly, I am hurting God, but I praise you because you are worthy. You have undergone a worse way of hurting so why should i cry? Indeed God, i feel so blessed because you have taught me how to handle positivity under pressure. Praise you God. Praise You in everything. However God, i am asking for more wisdom to understand.. More faith to endure. You alone are God, and You are the only source of true wisdom and faith. Once again Lord, i thank you for searching for me.. for knowing me.. for understanding and forgiving me for so many times.. I love You Lord. I can make it through the storm..because i have You.. Please hold me tight God and never ever let me go.. in Jeus name.. amen"