Menschville in Catanduanes for the Second Time!

Super cool! What a blessing!

When the Sun Stood Still

I can still remember the times when I "go" alone in many places. It used to be so weird of me to just go, whenever I hear the Lord telling me to go. I am just a tiny woman and most of the time, I carry huge pieces of luggage, and find kids. God's patterns for me gradually unfolded, and these were picturesque of kids, longing for faith, hope, and love...

When I went to Leyte alone some years ago, finding my way to the typhoon Haiyan victims, I was so blessed that the Lord has provided a team to work with me from the time I stepped on that land. I can still remember them today. I am just so thankful for their lives. I have faith that the Lord has been putting them in higher places now, administering fruitful ministries.

The thing that has struck me most that time was my 6-hour "God moment". I was a chance passenger for a ferry from Hilongos to Cebu and by the time I came to the port, I realized I had to wait for 6 hours for me to take off to the other Island. Again, I was alone. In that 6 long hours, I was recurrently asking the Lord out of tiredness from all the toil in the previous ministry. I asked Him, "why am I alone? what am I doing here? Did You really call me to do these things? " and all these funny yet valid questions aroused my longing soul, as I was just crying my heart out to Him before the heavens, the sea and all the rats under my feet.

In my despair, I was embraced by His grace and love as He has given me this beautiful answer when the sun started to set that time..

"Can't you see my daughter, you are not alone... I am with You all along.."

And tears poured out.. Truly I am called, I am loved, I am not alone... even up to this day!

I love you my faithful Lord Jesus!

I remember  when God has let the sun to "stand still" during the battle of Joshua against the enemies.."  which in Hebrew also translates to Greek root words, "when the Son stood still on the cross"....  I believe, this is the Lord, standing still as I fight my battles too. I am not alone in these battles as myself and my God are in these together.. so are you and Him..

For whatever it is that is keeping you from moving forward, I tell you:

Don't stop, take courage, press on!

The Lord is with you, as you remain in Him!

"Then Joshua spoke to the Lord in the day when the Lord delivered up the Amorites before the children of Israel, and he said in the sight of Israel: Sun, stand still over Gibeon; and Moon, in the Valley of Aijalon. So the sun stood still, and the moon stopped, till the people had revenge upon their enemies. Is this not written in the book of Jasher? So the sun stood still in the midst of heaven, and did not hastened to go down for about a whole day. And there has been no day like that, before it or after it, that the Lord heeded a voice of a man; for the Lord fought for Israel (Joshua 10:12-14)."

The Other Face of Marawi

Marawi is a beautiful place, not a place of terrorism..

starting from scratch

"Being like a boat that keeps on sailing against the stormy winds.."

A month ago, my laptop was stolen...2 weeks ago, i lost my job....a day ago, my atm card was almost captured (a significant amount was lost-technical error- pero kahit na malaking abala un!).. minutes ago, i almost fell from my chair when i've felt our ministry in guinobatan was "shaking".... Why are all these things happening?

They need to happen... God is up to something so He allows them to happen.. Everything has a purpose.. God is still in control..

Though sometimes i feel like i have done something wrong and all these are just the consequences of my errors, i feel tired.. i feel numb and confused of figuring out what did i do. I just realize that these are tests, not consequences.

Because of what are happening, i realize that there are 3 types of problems: consequence, test, temptation.

Consequence- we suffer from our own disobedience and irresponsibilities.

Test- we are taught to endure and after that, we grow and take higher steps for God's glory.

Temptation- coming from satan, from which our faith is tested.

Now, i am having the 2nd one. Test.

I have noted a lot of "assignments". I've prepared. Yet i need to re-do them. Got to repeat the process and finally get a perfect score.


I had my laptop 10 months ago. It was an investment from my separation payment from my previous company. I've got successful freelance jobs with that laptop. yet after 10 months, it's gone. And now i am starting from scratch.

I had a good freelance job for a while. I just work 2 hours a day. I thought my career in that company is getting better until last april 5, the door closed. I lost it. now i am starting from scratch.

I had a clear-cut goal for our ministry in Guinobatan. I was so inspired that i had designed a leadership training for the youth. At first we had a confirmation from 20 attendees. 1 week before the event, they're down to 10. Now, 2 days before the training, there are just 3. They are incoming freshmen and the day of the training was just perfectly the time for their cards, scholarship applications, and all that. Now, i need to start from scratch.



HIS THOUGHTS ARE HIGHER THAN MINE..AND DEFINITELY, HIS WAYS ARE BETTER THAN MINE.

I surrender them all to God. God knows the best things. I just need to listen to His instructions.



"Lord, whatever you want from my life, I am ready for you. You deserve it all. You own it all. Even the hands that keep me on working and playing music.. they all come from you. Praise you God. If you want me to start from scratch, so be it. I will still praise Your Name. I am ready for that thing that you want me to understand and learn...

Honestly, I am hurting God, but I praise you because you are worthy. You have undergone a worse way of hurting so why should i cry? Indeed God, i feel so blessed because you have taught me how to handle positivity under pressure. Praise you God. Praise You in everything. However God, i am asking for more wisdom to understand.. More faith to endure. You alone are God, and You are the only source of true wisdom and faith. Once again Lord, i thank you for searching for me.. for knowing me.. for understanding and forgiving me for so many times.. I love You Lord. I can make it through the storm..because i have You.. Please hold me tight God and never ever let me go.. in Jeus name.. amen"

A letter from heaven..

For the past few hours, i kept on asking God,

"what's wrong.. i've tried so hard, yet it was not enough.."

I am talking about what happened with the ministry. We have been having a bible study in our house for about a year now, but our group has not yet grown. From 10 attendees, we are now 5. Others have gone abroad to work, including my brother.

I feel like I have not give it all to Him. I feel something has yet to be done but the problem is, i don't know what it is. BUT GOD KNOWS. That's why i keep on asking Him.

Later, i remember the letter that was given to me by one of the students in one bible study entrusted to me by God. I have read it for the nth time. However for the 1st time, i felt something deeper. God has used me for this kid. I never felt effective until then. Even for one soul, i felt God's purpose was fulfilled. Praise God.

His short letter has been integrated with 3 powerful words...

thank you..
sorry...
i'll miss you..


For the past 2 months, God has allowed me to disciple this group of incoming freshmen and it was such a blessing to me. It was such a gift that i want to share with other people as well. I want to let you know that, nothing goes better than the fulfillment gathered from the service for God.

Those 3 words have touched me a lot. And the whole letter makes my heart fly. The unexplainable feeling rushed through my veins and I know, it was gladness. God gave me hope. He is my hope.


"Lord thank you for the opportunity to serve you. Thank you for enabling me to talk, move my hands, walk, see, hear..everything..

You are so wonderful. Teach me God how to maximize everything that You have given me. I believe You have lots of plans for me. Please help me understand your instructions. Give me your wisdom to understand your thoughts. I know that even though i'd try so hard, i can accomplish nothing if i don't have you. So God, consume me in and out. I plead you Lord.

Many times i want to give up, but You are my strength. You are the fortress that keep me from falling. You are my stronghold that keeps me standing. YOu are my shelter that protects me. You can everything that i used to abandon. I am sorry Lord for sometimes, i ignore YOu, I turn away from You. i sleep instead of talking to You. I work instead of raising my hand unto You. Sorry Lord if I've made you cry,

Thank you Lord for your grace. Father i know You won't give up on me. Thank you for the chance to give it back to You. I know you are not yet finished with me. I am ready for you God. Please hold me closer. In Jesus name.. Amen"

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