Painful Night
Part 1
Tonight is a painful night
I watched another prince movie,
Being entertained once again
And strangely hurt by the happy ending for the nth time
As they lived happily ever after
My dream of the same ending is killed at the same time
I realize it won't happen to me
And it hurts
Maybe I desire it that is why it hurts
Well maybe it will happen I just don't know when
I just wanted to destress from the toxic adult problems
I was convincing my younger brother that
he is never a disappointment when deep inside me, I am the one who is
But I pray to the Lord and ask forgiveness over and over
And I don't repeat the prayer because of doubt but because my heart really yearns for Him
I know and believe that He will make things turn around
He will provide
I am His child
I lack nothing
And so I thank You Lord
For everything that You have done
And for being an awesome God
No matter the circumstance
I will praise and worship You
Jesus, my Lord and Savior
Part 2
I can't keep the tears from welling up
My nose is not serving its purpose
I thank God for giving me mouth in this case
This migraine is killing me
But I will fight for my life until I see a happy soul
There seems no-one around me who is not hurting
Everyone needs healing including me
That is why we need a Savior and Healer
Jesus is the answer
I pray that everyone will put that in their banner
And stop being a bummer
Part 3
I'm drinking my tears and I'm getting drowned
But still I know there will be sunshine tomorrow
My heart is overwhelmed with pain
but I know God is my healer
God knew pain more than I do
Hence He knows how and when it stops
I just trust the sovereign Creator
who died on the cross for me
such pain while being hung on the tree
is far worse than what I feel today
I am grateful for Him who saved me
because I know at the end of it all
He promised that there will be no more tears,
no more pain, and no more sadness.
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