Manila is Going to Hell? :'(

This is the beautiful APTS Prayer Mountain around 7am

(Can you see the compass post at the center of this picture?)

Here's a closer look at that compass

(see the direction towards Manila?)

That hand pointing to Manila pointed to the vision I had in the prayer mountain last May 16, 2014

At first I did not know what that vision meant. Here is the transcription of what my drawing says:

"One dark night in May 2014...

I was really scared to see that vision.

I saw fire and blood in the sky and every second 

it went bigger and seemed like anytime, 

it was going to explode and consume me.

I was alone and helpless. 

I did not know if I'm gonna run or stay 

because it seemed like anytime, 

I'm gonna hear God's voice.

That great voice I know I can't contain.

He is God. It was really overwhelming. 

I was shaking like fire was through my bones.

...until God instructed me:

"PRAY FOR HEALING... PRAY FOR HEALING... PRAY FOR HEALING.."

on and on an on...

so while trembling in fear and awe, I did."

After that encounter, I went home. And as soon as i turned on my laptop and as the skype automatically logged in, a friend of mine sent a msg right away.

"Sister...", she said, "Please pray for me, my cyst on both breasts came back. I need an operation.."
I was shocked and realized what God has just let me experience in the prayer mountain.

And the next days were just not very normal. Many people I know and mostly close to me got sick and asked for prayers for healing.....

I asked God,, is that it?

I remember that night also, God has given me an impression to book for BKK out of nowhere.

So I booked that same night for BKK September 2014 travel.

BKK was the first missionfield where I got exposed with.

The short visit to BKK is another long story. But the part that is connected to this vision is when I was in the plane back to the Philippines.

I was alone and occupying the 3 seats (2 seats unoccupied at the middle part of the plane.

It was dark, around 3am.

When I looked through the window, I was trembling in fear with what I saw...

I saw something that looked like these:

[credits to http://www.kalapanaculturaltours.com/ ,  http://hawaiianlavadaily.blogspot.com/, and http://hawaii.hawaii.edu/]

And I heard a voice, "Manila is going to hell... Manila is going to hell..."

I was weeping when I heard it.

What I saw and feel in the prayer mountain and from that plane back to Manila were the same.

MANILA NEEDS HEALING.

I PRAY THAT PEOPLE WILL TURN BACK TO GOD.

I am not judging Manila. It is God who has the right to do so. My part is to share this experience and encourage you to live your life according to the purpose that God has designed for you.

I believe God has been calling out servants to this city.

Our Father is merciful, patient, and loving. We still have the chance.

Blessed First Travel To Bangkok

@ Bangkok City Church

I did not understand their counting from 1,2,3 so the moment they said 'sam' they all jumped and i just followed, it shows in the picture that I was the last one to jump!

A shot from the boat going to Asiatique from Wat Arun

While climbing up the Wat Arun temple

I climbed this temple!

See?

Had fun with the 'King's Kids' in Bangkok City Church

Sports Day with the church hours before I left BKK

Finally I got the chance to have a picture with McDonalds doing "Sawadeeka"

It was a fulfilling 4-day travel. I met some great missionaries and had the chance to work with them. We visited some slum areas and I was able to see how they ministered to them. The Americans I met were amazing. They are so good at the Thai Language. I also want to learn the language. If God wills it, I will also be a missionary to BKK or to any Buddhist country.

Glory to God.

8 Years!

Got a quick sketch for mom! 
Aug 1, 2006, we lost our mom but her memories live on.. Two of my brothers and myself are thankful for her life. We have been blessed. 
Don't have much words to express it....... I miss her but her memories make me glad and proud. Surely Kuya Jason and Nomer Jake also do..  
Glory to God for our mom's life 

Preparing and Praying for My Papers

I am starting with Daniel now and I believe God will be with me as I accomplish these. I am still thinking about the situation of the church in Bicol but yah, God is in control. I just want to surrender it all to Him. He called me here and I know He wants me to do my best. He is the one working there and my part today is to do what I need to do here.

God is good!

10th shelf on the left wing

It's amazing how God moved this morning when He lead me to the library. I have been wrestling with my term paper topics for the past weeks and until this morning, I still do not have a topic for Old Testament introduction. The other night though, Dr.Chai thought my term paper topic in her class (Biblical Theology of Missions) is fine, and that is "PROPHECY: A fingerprint of the Holy Spirit in Missions". I was still not sure with this topic though. My topic in Cross Cultural Communication with Dr. Barb has been confirmed earlier because of our worldview presentations, where my topic was Myanmar Lens.

Last night, my heart was really so heavy because of the news I was receiving about the ministry in Bicol. I was crying to God about certain things and as I was praying, God led me to Jeremiah 20. I was having the same complains with the prophet. I said I don't want to teach and serve there anymore because they are so hard-headed ppl. But then, just like Jeremiah, I realized, it is God who is in control. His Word is like fire in my  heart and flowing through my bones that just want to burst out!

Back to the library surprise from God... When I walked down to the underground of the library, I did not have any plan where to go. It's a room of over 60,000 books. I just asked unknowingly above me with a whisper: "Lord, where do you want me to go.. Help me figure this out.. what's my topic?"
And then, the instruction popped out in my head:
"Go to 10th shelf.."
Then it was weird, I went there and asked again:
"Should it be the 10th left or right shelf?"
Then the instruction was:
"Turn left".
and then.....

BOOM!

I was just brought by God to the shelf of all the prophetic books! I am not so familiar with the sections of the library yet so I had no idea that that shelf was it. I usually go for googlebooks before ^^.

It was a confirmation from God that I can surely write about Prophecy for BTM and then for OT, any topic about the prophets.

God is amazing. He gives detailed instruction whenever needed and whenever He wants to.

Flying so many times this year

I feel like I am one of the busiest missionaries here in APTS ^^
But yeah, I still have a lot to learn before I can be like them.
I believe God has called me for a mission and I am ready wherever He wants to send me.

I was just thinking a moment ago how many times I flew this year and how many more flights I have to take:

January- Manila to Legazpi
April- Legazpi to Manila
May- Manila to Legazpi
May-  Manila to Tacloban
June- Cebu to Manila
June- Manila to Legazpi
June- Legazpi to Manila
June- Clark to Hongkong
June- Hongkong to Clark

September- Manila to Bangkok
September-Bangkok to Manila
September- Manila to Legazpi
September-  Legazpi to Manila
October- Manila to Seoul
October- Seoul to Manila
December-January
-Manila to Kuala Lumpur to Myanmar
-Myanmar to Kuala Lumpur to Manila

I never had these multiple flights in my life. I know these are just few compared to other missionaries or even tourists. I just want to thank God for the opportunities to take all these flights where I have learned a lot. Most of these have really caused impact to my life as I have experienced His presence during my travels since I took all these flights ALONE with God.

I am not that rich to afford all these flights. This is why God is amazing. He provides.

I hope I can blog everyday

As the title of this blog says, "everyday with Chibi"
Seems ironic. hehe. But I just hope I can make it to drop a post at least everyday.
But I will try. Hey, it's just a few days before the classes start again. I will  be off to HK first this friday
and then to Baguio on Sunday night. I am a bit pressured for my new program: MA in Intercultural Studies.
Nonetheless, I am also feeling excited because I am now sure that this is what I want also. I always ignore this program in the catalog as I always preferred MA Theology before. But later months last year, I was thinking I feel something is really missing. And when I talked to God about it, He gave me a vision:

"You will be a stranger in strange places and you will meet strange people..."

That was when I went out of the campus and have a 3 hours walk and met different people. I met a young girl named Me-ann when I ate in one canteen in Pacdal circle. She's a new Christian, who have just attended church for 2 consecutive sundays. I thought God brought me to her to encourage her because I have seen strong potential in her too to be a minister. It was great experience.

I am still going to APTS Baguio by faith, knowing that God will soon provide for my everyday needs there and for my school fees. He has let me survive last year and I believe He will also uphold me this year in Jesus name!

I miss my MTI friends

Some of them I am not sure if we will still meet until our last breath on earth. Hehe. That's really one of the saddest things about being a missionary, you need to face many goodbyes. But hey, one of the best things on the other hand is the many "Hellos". I am blessed to know them all. I thank God for bringing them on my way.

I think this was after the first 2 weeks in MTI

Taking pictures before we took off for the practicum weekend- Learning local language

taking pictures after the tea ceremony by tea master Miyuki!

Enjoying the class I think with Sir Darin- Interpersonal Relationships

Google map for the different churches we've been to during the prac weekends

picture picture again before getting on the wagons!

Picture picture with our 2nd module teachers Shellie and Darin

with my sweet burmese sister Zin Zin, who asks a lot of questions regularly hehe

Lunch @ the cafeteria with Dr. Jay from Java

One of my favorite buddies during MTI, Miu Ling, I miss her dearly

So sweet, Dr.Dave made a tea for wife Debbie

With Bettina during the prac weekend at Dalicno

we entered the tunnel, wishing there will be gold somewhere!

Music team :)

Graduation time!

We look so relieved here!

I made it to the top 500 for the Himig Handog Love Songs- songwriting competition!

I made it to the top 500 sa himig handog love songs in abs-cbn! .. Glory to God 
kahit makasama lang sa 500 naiiyak na ako  ( hehehe.. out of 6000 entries at least nakasama..  It's the song i wrote dedicated to my loving and faithful God... keep praying 

http://himighandog.abs-cbn.com/finalists.html

Yey!  Glory to God!!!! <3 p="">

This Songs Means to Me (Take me out of the dark)

I snatched a minute from my time today to record this amazing song by Gary V.  I really like this song as the message just emphasizes God's control over my life and His power to turn things around when they are not really right.

" Trust in the Lord with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
    and he will make your paths straight."
-Proverbs 3:5-6

...

Enjoy listening :)  (Chickens were also singing with me ^^ )

Just what is it in me?
Sometimes I just don't know
What keeps me in Your love,
Why you never let me go

And though you're in me now,
I fall and hurt you still
My Lord, please show me how
To know just how you feel

You have forgiven me
Too many times it seems (I got the wrong chord here! sorry)
I feel I'm not what you might call
A worthy Christian after all

And though I love You so
Temptation finds it's way to me

Teach me to trust in You
With all my heart
To lean not on my own understanding
I just forget
You won't give me what I can't bear

Take me out of the dark, my Lord
I don't wanna be there

You've never left my side
You gave Your hand to me to hold
Oh Jesus, I'm no longer in the cold

And yet, I leave You there
When I feel satisfied
I'd like to thank You every day
Not only when I feel that way

I've never known a Man
Who'd give His life for sinners like me
And yet, because He loves us so
He's promised us eternity
And we can have that promise
And be His if we have faith
And just believe

Teach us to trust in you
With all my heart
To lean not on my own understanding
We just forget
You won't give us what we can't bear

Take us out of the dark, My Lord
'Cause we don't want to be alone
Take me out of the dark, My Lord
We don't wanna be there, My Lord

Trust in You with all my heart
Lean not on my own understanding
I just forget
You won't give me what I can't bear

Take me out of the dark, My Lord
Cause we don't want to be alone
Take me out of the dark, My Lord
I don't want to be there
...

MTI Graduation

Missionary Training Institute 2014

Yes it was a 6-week pressure on lessons, assignments, papers, and all! 

But We all conquered the Missionary Training Institute, which was concluded on May 23, 2014

@ APTS Baguio.

So blessed, God has taught me a lot of things that I will surely bring for the rest of my life as a missionary.

A Dollar and Go Far

Air I breathe

It' Valentines day. Just an ordinary day. Anyway, it's a pagan tradition so why celebrate. I don't want to spoil the day of lovers by pushing my bitterness around. I respect your happiness so just ignore my annoying mentality that is harbored with an implacable bitterness. This will pass. :)

I don't want to remain bitter. I was praying since last night and asking God about His plan for me. Why am I here? I don't know exactly where to go. I'm in pain. Terribly in it. Confused. With a sigh, I told Him "I really don't know. Just have Your way please".

My first boyfriend and I broke up exactly 2 weeks ago. I love that guy. But I need to let him go. It was 3 years of on and off relationship already and we just realized we need to grow up separately. We are on different pages already. Now I want God to turn the page for me. I cannot carry the weight of that page but for sure, God has something really great in mind. Something that I might not be able to contain so I am bracing myself before He bursts it all out.

My pain won't change His being God. But the reality remains, I'm in pain. I told Him I want to praise and worship Him while in pain because no matter how painful it is, He is still God. I said sorry, because I know for myself, that because my heart is not at its perfect shape, it is not 100% working for Him. I just repeatedly ask Him: "fix it.. fix it.. fix it.."

I cannot say that I am happy. It's hard to say so when you know that something has broken your heart. 2 weeks. Nonetheless, I am aware that I won't be like this forever.I have to undergo the process.

When I was praying this morning, I cried to God to push me to the right way. The fork in the road is just confusing. Which is leading to Him? Which is the road to happiness? Then He told me, "just be content then you will be happy. There are so many problems in the world that are far depressing than yours.."

I believe that all things work for the good of those who love and obey the Lord. God will restore me for sure. Though I am confused today with my life, I will never be confused about God's power to take control of it. He is my faithful God. He will keep His promise to be with me now and forever. I am confident that God will rescue me and uphold me with His righteous right hand. I will soar with Him and kiss the storm goodbye. As long as I have the air to breathe in, I know, God's giving me hope.

No matter what happens, He is God.. He is God.. I praise Him.

[stumbled upon this article: http://www.turnbacktogod.com/praising-god/  .. just taking notes]

Please help us build this home for the young Christian musicians and leaders :)

One of the reasons why I am not enrolling this trim in APTS is the setting up of this school:
--Menschville Center for Christian Music and Leadership--

I would like to invite you all to take this opportunity to build this home with
us for the kids and youth in Bicol who will be future Christian leaders!
We need "Musicionaryos" (musician/missionaries) and missionary teachers also
who can volunteer to stay for at least 2 weeks here (anytime of the year).
We need the following and you may want to donate in cash, kind, or see if you
can volunteer as a teacher/minister to the kids and youth.

God knows our needs and we have this faith that God is the God who provides
more than enough

class rooms and library needs:
bibles (tagalog or english)
PDL by R.Warren and Experiencing God by H.Blackaby (for our textbook in our
primer course "GAM"- God and Me.)
and more books, references, magazines

Physical: (closing the existing veranda to make an additional classroom, cr, and library) roofing, ceiling, wall, flooring (linoleum)- around 15-20k

studio:
mixer
drums set
beatbox
condenser mics

[we already have the ff: guitar, keyboard, speakers, bass guitar, lcd monitor/tv 24" - but we don't have extras yet]

office:
print ads (tarps and signs)- around 1k
printer- around 6k
other supplies- around 3k

Please send me a message or you can personally visit our place
@ Menschville, #348 San Francisco, Guinobatan, Albay.
my phone number is 639484488453

PS: I will be back to the seminary on June! We just need to establish this and
the admin who will take over once I leave for APTS again
[pictures will be posted soon]

God is good!!!!

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